Welcome to my collection of reflections on grief; chronic illness, trauma, change, death, and the quieter losses that shape a life without anyone naming them.

These come from lived experience: the despair, the unexpected beauty, the endings and beginnings, and everything in between that doesn’t fit neatly into either.

You’ll find writing here on the grief of chronic illness, of becoming someone different than you were, of letting go of futures you’d already imagined, and on what it means to slowly build a life around a loss that doesn’t go away.

I write from inside it, as honestly as I can — what it’s actually like to live alongside grief while still finding your way back to feeling alive.

My hope is that something here helps you feel less alone. That somewhere in these pages, you find a bit of language for something you’ve been carrying by yourself.

Thank you for being here. If you'd like to read on, here’s the collection:

The Grief of Chronic Illness

For when you can't go back in time

A Life falling apart before it even began

When your heart is waterlogged by grief

The Grief of doing everything right (and still being unwell)

The risk of denying your grief

When grief comes with no funeral

The Grief of Wellness

Grief is a time traveller

Not for lack of trying

Daring to imagine a new life

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