Even in this small body, when I spend long hours hiking under the heavy weight of everything I need on my back, I end up feeling empowered, tired and free. Nature has always been my go-to healer, my refuge, my companion and my oracle on the path. Last year, during a moment of emotional heaviness, I took an overnight backpacking trip with a friend up to Mount Pacifico. As I was sweating and trekking 7 miles up the side of an Angeles Forest mountain, I received this message:

“To heal the corruption in the external systems, you must face the corruption within yourself.”

We have only to look outside our own door to see that all the corruption in the collective psyche is coming up to the surface. Some of us are out on the streets, doing the work of naming the hypocrisy and speaking up for justice there. And some of us are doing the work of dismantling the false systems from within, knowing that this world is a hologram and every bit of energy we contribute toward the vision of a harmonious and non-violent future ripples throughout the entire system.

The way I’ve come to see it is like this: there are a bunch of decaying ways and ideas that are attached to an old ‘grid.’ An old grid and an old story, filled with illusory ways of thinking, being and behaving that do not serve life. And that false grid has been unplugged. It is no longer connected to anything that allowed it to sustain itself on this planet. It is in its death throes, and everything still attached to it is fighting with its last breath to survive.

But underneath it and all around it, a new story is being written and a new way is being born. It is, in fact, already here. The new and ancient way is rooted in truth and rooted in love.

Rooted in life itself, in fact.

You might feel the squeezing of these times. This is what it is like to be birthed. And the only way out is through. In the moments where I get caught in the old energy of the dying grid, the fear can be paralyzing. From this universal womb you can sense the chaos, the grief, and the control patterns that are gripping with every last ounce of their might, trying to hold onto the old ways…

But when the contraction releases… can you feel the new?

Can you see the light of this new world waiting on the other side?

Are you starting to at least get glimpses of it?

You might see it in a brief moment of real connection during an unexpected conversation at the grocery store, perhaps. Or maybe you see it in the way the community around you rises up to support someone struggling. Are you starting to see that there is no other, there is only us? That all children are our children, there their pain is our pain and that you — yes, you — are also a child of God?

Detaching from the old grid and allowing yourself to fall and be caught by the new world can be scary. We all have pieces of ourselves connected to this false grid, because that’s the only way its been able to sustain itself. These corrupted systems have hooks in your body and removing them is painful. It is a reminder of all the time you spent living in this illusion, a reminder of all the ways you betrayed yourself or others because you did not know another way. The process of removing them can feel like a reminder of your mistakes.

Getting free requires you to get uncomfortable.

But I PROMISE you that the discomfort is simply a moment of compression, a contraction, a birth surge, no matter how long it appears to last…. And on the other side of the pain is light. Room to breathe. The top of the mountain and that moment where you finally get to put that heavy pack down and look over at the view. The place where you will reach a soul alignment so deep that you could have never imagined this was possible.

So what does that look like for us in practice?

It looks like taking note of everywhere we were not living in truth. Down to the little details. ‘Telling the microscopic truth’ is what I’ve heard it called. For me it’s been painful. It’s been eye-opening. It has cost me relationships and forced me to go slower than I’d like and have more difficult conversations than I would ever want to.

And I finally feel free. Because I know I will continue to face whatever comes with courage and to meet whatever is asked of me with my open heart. I know that I will continue to walk up this mountain with you until we reach the summit, no matter how much weight it feels like I’m carrying.

For it is ALL of us who will create this world from the inside out, writing the new story of humanity through our breath, through our words, through our habits and our hearts.

And I want it to be a good one this time.

Will you write it with me?

— Autumn

She was composted into the soil of my becoming.

I love her.

I honor her.

She became the ground into which I root today.

The water.

The nutrients.

The guiding light for this shift has been simple, though not always easy to implement: my full presence. Ram Dass’s words ‘Be Here Now’ are some of the simplest instructions that lead to the biggest shifts, because to Be Here Now means you are taking every moment of your life as an opportunity to learn, to give and to feel.

In the past I never understood how transformation could happen so quickly.

Now I do.

It is because every single moment of my life has become an acceptance of the lesson that is in front of me, a living prayer and a willingness to see, feel and alchemize EVERYTHING that enters my field. This is why I called my community Earth School, because we’re here on this planet to learn… and to experience allll of this wild, messy human life while we do it. The moment when we stop judging, controlling and manipulating is the moment when we can finally SEE the truth.

One “me” is constantly dying for a new me to be born. And I love every version of her across every timeline. But I love this moment, and this “me” the most.

Because she is the ME who is here NOW.

Here is what shifted in 2025:

1. My voice.

The terror I felt for YEARS around releasing my voice has somehow vanished through the steady practice of speaking and writing the simple truth. For those of you still held captive in these trenches of silence, I see you. Be gentle on yourself; you’re unraveling centuries of conditioning for women. It’s stuck in our bodies, in our DNA, in our collective memory. Be kind to that woman you were as you’re in the process of transforming the old layers into who you have become and who you already are. I see you — and I can’t wait to hear you, too.

2. The part of me that wanted to stay hidden.

I don’t. I want to be seen. In my beauty. In my mess. In my humanity. “Me.” This year in April I held my first in-person women’s retreat in Sedona with two of my friends and facilitators in transformation, Kristi & Noel. We called it SEEN. Now I understand why. We are always creating the exact medicine we ourselves need. In that way, I invite you to lean closer to the parts of yourself that scare you. Be brave in looking into your shadows and the disowned aspects of yourself, to bring the parts of you that are scared to be seen a little closer to the light. All parts of you are welcome here.

3. The part of me still trying to explain and get it right.

She has been released. It feels like she died. That anxiety was born out of childhood wounds and healed by sisterhood and ceremony and people who are clean mirrors. I don’t care to get it right. It’s impossible because right and wrong are constructs of the lower mind. I care to get it TRUE. And in finding my truth, l found my freedom.

What a relief.

And it makes sense. 2025 was the lunar year of the snake, a year about shedding everything we no longer needed, everything that is no longer a match for our current frequency, and everything that’s been weighing us down.

Did you feel it, too?

But 2026 is the lunar year of the fire horse. An energetic combination not to be seen again for another 60 years.

This is an invitation for the collective. A full-steam ahead moment for all of us. The energy of the chariot, of the archer on horseback, and of our own inner spark.

Are you ready to say yes?

I am:)

— Autumn

You can tell him I sent you.

At Ness, I had an orgasmic experience with some brioche and choripan. I had a love affair with a fish soufflé and a kale salad. Some marinated strawberries and a flan had their way with me. Weird, I know. But excellent food can have that effect on a girl.

As for the copious amounts of wine poured that evening, I’ve gone through many different phases of figuring out how to relate to alcohol. As someone on a spiritual path, facing this question is unavoidable. The conclusion I’ve come to about wine is this: like most things, it’s neutral. It depends on the quality of consciousness that we bring to it. And on HOW we are in relationship with it.

When I’m at home, I don’t drink much. I didn’t find that it enhanced my life and it turns out that I really like to sleep through the night. But on trips like these, traveling with my best friend through her home country of Argentina, each glass of wine was medicine. The relationship brought me deeper into communion with my heart, my friend and the land herself.

Maybe Earth was speaking to us through grapes and we were listening. Maybe a glass of Malbec is simply an essential part of a trip to Argentina. Maybe invitations to gratitude overflow in many different ways.

I give thanks.